Last Winter

Thursday, May 17, 2007

I have been reading applely's blog recently... She seems very depressed and mood swing... She cant seems to make her decision whether to go for dance or not... Hope that she can be with the guy that she likes... Maybe if she were to confess her feeling towards him, they will be possible to be together... But i believe to her, i am like an outsider who knows nuts about what is going on with her... But applely, dont think too much... It wont do you any good... It ok to be mood swing/emo... The problem is you must know how to control your mood and not let your mood to control you ok... take care... =)

Decision made on Tuesday... I went for UT before going to meet him... YEAH!!! To me, it wasn't a bad choice... Because when i reached his place at around 12, he is still sleeping... When he knows that i was under his block, he stunned... Because he didnt except me to take cab over to his place... Hey come on, raining you know... i believe you also dont want your gf to be sick right... haha... if not later you want to say no one to take care of me... was at his place for 2 hours before heading to lunch and kbox... on tuesday he kept on making me angry... because he wants to see how i look when i am angry... lol... what a cute person... but i know he didnt it... then there was once when i beat his hand and his hand become red then i apologise to him.... then he told me if i were to feel heart pain after beating him, then i should not even beat him in the first place... then i walked anyway feeling shy and ask me not to talk to me or even come near me... haha...

Yesterday i also went to meet him after school... then he thought that i never talk because he never come over to woodlands to pick me up... come on i never talk is not because of this silly reason... i didnt talk to you its because when you called me to ask where am i, you tone isnt good.. you seems to be like unhappy/angry talking to me... i dont like you talking to me like that... he wanted to carry my laptop for me... but i rejected i told that he was the one who said that my laptop case is not easy to carry... since is like that then you should not be caryying it for me... but i know i am willing to let him carry only my mouth dont want... because i want to be hard on him... but he understand what i am thinking... since understand le then i still want to say no... in the end he really dont know what i am thinking then he told me he is having difficulties understanding me... actually you are not the one who dont know instead i am the one who dont understand you... i dont even know what you like to do and eat... simple thing like this i dont even know... so there is no right for me to be angry with you if you dont understand me... i am sorry... but i will try my best to understand everything in you...

When we are at his place, he wanted to open my laptop... so no choice open lor... then he saw his picture in my laptop he was like vey happy lor... haha... but i didnt want to let him see... so i purposely show him jeffery's photo saying that he is my bf... then his face change... haha... dont you know you are very funny... want to make me angry also want to make me laugh... you make me hate and love you on the same time... yesterday i dont want to carry umbrella was not because your umbrella spoilt... the reason is that you said your arm is tired.. since you said its tired obviously i wont want you to carry it... but i like the way you hugged me... you treat me well because i am you gf... but the problem is whenever i see that you are treating me well, i will feel happy and want to cry... cry because i am too happy... hey... i want to go kbox with you again... then next time will be during my term break ok...

Yesterday he promise me that he will be coming to woodlands to look for me next week when he is having 3 days of leave... dont always think for me... think for yourself too... because what is good for me does not mean that it is good for you understand... must take care of yourself too... i also dont want you to be sick because you wont want to take care of yourself and i might not have the time to take care of you too... some more seeing you sick will make me heart pain... he told me that he burnt his hand because he was thinking of me... as he was afraid that i might 'playing' with other guys in my work place... lol... what rubbish is that... haha... i only want you to be worry and jealous will do... i dont need the rest... but the most important thing is that you will have to be happy understand... even if i am unhappy, seeing you happy, i will definitely feels happy too... i understand it applys to you too... so we must be happy everyday so that seeing either of us will make a even happier... haha... just want to tell you, i love you... =P

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