Last Winter

Friday, May 18, 2007

Today's lesson is very boring... this is even worst then science lesson... is really very bad... but anyway, manage to do the presentation which is short and sweet la... so we should be able to leave early for today... in this case i might not be late for work... that is so great!!! IN FUTURE I MUST REMEMBER TO PUT AN OFF FOR FRIDAY... every alter Fridays i will forget to write what the hell... then i will have to rush down for work... which is so sick and tired even though i might be able to see him... actually i don't like to see him when i am working because i do not have the time... he is like working hard in the kitchen hurting his finger and etc while i am working hard clearing the customer at the cashier counter... today he will be working until 930 whereas i have to work until 1030... doing closing is like spoiling my manicure... sian... anyway it started to peel off already... so...........................

Most of my classmates are playing cs... i don't understand what is so fun about cs?? seems so violent lor... keep killing people here and there..=X sorry for saying this but i really don't like the game la... paiseh!!

I have been shopping for clothes fortnightly... haha... no choice... after getting in poly, shopping is like part of my school... lol... i dont want to bring him out for shopping because i dont want him to be the one who is paying for all my shopping expenses even though he is my bf... yesterday night he is very funny.. kept telling me that because he is my bf so he got to know what is my chinese name... lol... i dont even like my chinese... after he knew about it, he kept calling me that... anyway i dont mind him calling me that... i will only hope that he wont spread it to others... luckily i didnt doze while waiting for him to call because i have not been answering his calls... i know that he wont mind instead will be happier that i sleep as he wants me to stay focus for lesson... but seriously, not talking to him in the night will make my day worst... i had a nightmare yesterday night.. hope that the nightmare will not become real... because i dreamt that he left me for other girl... i dont want that to happen...you may think that i am thinking too much as he had said that it is impossible for him to leave me... but i am just afraid that... i dont want to leave him... really dont want...

He told me that he had difficulties understanding me... am i that difficult to be understood?? His reason is because today's me is not yesterday's me... it seems that i am a different person everyday... i think that i am a person who like freedom so people need to know me for sometimes before they will know me totally... hope that he wont want to leave me because of that... i didnt mean to keep telling you to break off and whatever.. i am just saying because i dont want to show you how much i love you... i will try to show you how i am so that you will be comfortable with me... and i also dont want and dont like you to worry for me... so from now onwards, i will listen to you..

Next week i MIGHT be skipping friday's lesson... but its not confirm... i will depends on my team member... if most are not going, then i doubt i will be going... dont want to be left out... haha... i will be ending here if not some people want to say that i am writing RJ again.. haha...

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