Last Winter

Friday, October 05, 2007

I haven been blogging for quiet some time. Seriously, I felt that once I never touch my blog, I will not have the feeling of blogging after sometime. Because I will have difficulties in blogging as when things had past for a long time, blogging will not be easy especially there are situation which we can remember.

Today is our 6th month’s anniversary. I am very happy, but he is unable to accompany me. Why didn’t he take leave on this day?? After telling him, he wanted to change his schedule… But too bad, it is too late. so he is unable to company me due to his work… if he were there to accompany me, I will feel that today will be a better day. on the other hand, I felt that 6th months is too slow because we seems to be like more than a year already.

I am planning to be with him for long because I can’t break with him. I had tried breaking with him before. But from that moment I told him, I know that I am unable to break with him due to my feeling towards him. I really need him and felt happy with him. Even though there are times where he made me angry, I am ok with him because it was him who makes me. If it were to be others, my feeling will be very different.

I don’t know how long can I be with him, but I will try to be with him as long as I can. That is what I have been thinking. I want to be with him until the day I am dead because that feeling that he had given me was really very good.

Wednesday night, he called his mom and asked his mom to talk to me. I was very shy to talk to her because I haven seen her before, plus she is his mom. So I must give her good impression so that in future is I can be with him, his mom will treat me in a very good manner. Because when I am at home, I get the most attention, so even when I got married, I will also want to get the most attention from his parents as well as his sibling. Actually, I am thinking of getting married now. I know to whoever is reading this entry, will think that there is still a long way to go. Seriously, I am thinking about it maybe it is because we are in a ‘honeymoon’ relation now, so maybe if we were to be together for a year and above, things will not be the same as now?? And I might follow his ex’s steps by looking for another guy.

There was once I told him what I had told Jeffery in the past when I was not with him yet. There was once, I asked Jeffery whether does he like me or not and I told him that I was just curious which result me in asking him. Actually at that time when I asked him that question, I have a little feeling towards him. But since he said no, so I didn’t care about him. I would ask him was really due to curiosity not because I like him so I told him that. Is because, I just want to know how he feel for me. Be it his feeling is there or not, I will also not be with him because at that point of time, I already liked my bf. So it is not easy for me to like him. Then I told my bf that so I went to be with him. Then he thought that because Jeffery doesn’t want me which will result me to be with him. Actually I fall for him even less than a month when I had known him. Asking Jeffery that question was just asking for fun because I just want to know whether he likes me or not. Since he said no, of course, I will not bother so much about him. For my bf, he was the one was started calling me one night. From there the talking period between the both us became shorter and shorter. With another reason, we were together after that. As for Ella, don’t continue the part where Jeffery likes me because I do not want to leave my bf. So whatever you had told me, I will take it as joking if not, I will be really angry with you after that. So let’s forget about the issue that you had told me and never talk about that topic anymore alright!!! So I will end my blogging here for today.

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